I just got my schedule for highschool! It's going to really suck! I didn't get any of the classes that I wanted except guitar, and I will also be a freshman (what I will now refer to as "fresh meat").errr.... I am already known as the freaky girl in my suffocatingly small town.... this ought to be fun. But my 8th grade dance last night went VERY well! I actually put on makeup and wore this really pretty dress! people didn't recognize me untill they really looked hard. i even got a few dances with guys, imagine that. maybe i should put a bit more effort into my appearence when september comes around this year..? well, at least one thing went right this week!

Have you ever felt like blogging, but don't know exactly what to write? yep, my situation exactly. Well, I can write some corny poetry (no offense intended after reading!). Hmm.. let me think. Okay, here:

"Moonlight streaks across my body as i dance around like a Wiccan hottie."

ha! how's that? hehe. okay, lets add to that shall we?

"moonlight streaks across my body as i dance around like a wiccan hottie. Cold damp earth squishes between my toes, splashing all of my nonexistent clothes."

although i perfer not to go skycladd.... but who gives? it rhymes! Umm.. yea. so, here's another corny poem! yay.

"Energy pulses through my veins, sending away all of my anger, my pains.Life is so difficult, so intense, so hard. Why won’t someone just send me a hallmark card?"

How's that!? hehe. I like it. Okay, well, enough of poetry night! I guess I can start blogging now.  Anyways, I am really excited for Ostara, that will be really fun. My friend is coming with me to the celebrations, so it will be awesome. My mom keeps asking me what i want instead of a basket this year (and its soo sad! she's not even pretending she's the ostara bunny this year! i always found that quite amusing, although the thought of a big enormus bunny sneaking into the house kind of frightened me a bit when i was younger.) even at age 15 i still think it would be fun to have the big bunny, but whatever, i like the presents best of all. I think i want a new electric guitar, but she was all, do i look like an ATM machiene? but then that usually means, yes, so im think im okay! (or let's hope so). I am soooo glad that i don't have school tommrow! yay. end of the trimester.

hey all! I have major body image problems. I am 5'5 and two months ago i weighed 137 and now i weigh 114. Is that unhealthy? and when I wake up in the morning, my ribs poke out, and then when i eat somethng (even if its tiny), my belly gets like huge, so by night time, my stomach looks discusting so I am getting to the point to where if i have somewhere to go at night where i have to wear something tight i won't eat that day so that i wont look like a cow, moo! Is that normal for your figure to do that? i just want to stay the way i look in the morning! please help if you can, im just really confused.

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here's a neat-o quiz i found and here's my results!

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:shock: Tonight I went to my hip hop class with my best friend Tori. we did this dance thingy. I hate it so much. I think that it is my strong distaste for anything to do with pop culture, but I enjoyed Tori's excited expressions and her happiness. it is so amazing what we put up with to make that other person happy. Tori puts up with my witchy crap and i put up with her preppy dance classes so i think that i'll call it even. I still wonder how we ever became best friends. We are completely opposite. She has a bubbly personality and loves bright colors and is very preppy. Then there's me: a bit depressing, likes black, and is just plain odd with my wiccan stuff and interest in things most teens wouldn't even know about. Its actually a great friendship because our personalities don't clash at all. Im just glad im not in that cheer gym dancing to brittney spears anymore and learning the "cool walk". lol. i guess these will be the times i will look back on when im old and wish i could be there again. Oh, i heard this really awesome joke from my friend:

okay, there this catholic school and the kids are in the cafeteria. The nun sets out a bowl of apples and puts a note on it saying "take only one, god is watching." and then she sets out a plate of cookies, and walks away. One of the kids walks up and writes a note and puts it on the plate of cookies reading "take all you want, god is watching the apples."

I thought that was just a nice little laugh. anyways, i have a few hours of homework that i have been stalling and putting off for the past few hours, so i should get to that!

Today Tori, my best friend, and I decided to hang out at my house. We were really bored, so we decided to make a teepee in the woods in my backyard (really no clue why). Anyways, so here we are like a bunch of dorks digging these huge fucking holes in the ground and burying sticks in them. We had this big blue tarp to wrap around the sticks but what really sucked was that we only had enough tarp for like half of the teepee. So there we were, sitting behind this big blue half teepee in the woods when I have the genius idea to make a mini camp fire. So we make this tiny ass circle of stones (about the size of the bottom of a milk jug) and so we put these tiny twigs in a cone shape in the center and i pull out my lighter to light it on fire. It didn't work so we ripped up some material and threw it in. Geez! that tiny thing went ablaze and smoked like mad! so we were sitting on these rocks staring at our tiny camp fire behind a big blue half teepee in the woods when tori breaks the silence and says "You know, it probably looks like were out here smoking pot to your parents because if you think about it, we ran out into the woods and then put up this big wall thing and then a few minuites later smoke starts pouring out of the top." I was all 'oh my god! put the damn thing out!" and the whole time we were just rolling cause it was so funny. you really had to be there to see just how funny it was, but OMG it was so funny. good times, good times. haha. I am way glad that today is friday. I am completely exhausted from school. they work us way too hard and then when we finally get a break from school on the weekend, they pile on more homework for us to do when we are supposed to be relaxing!!! stupidness! All these people at school told me that I have a black heart and that I am creepy. I just laughed at them. I mean, if you think about it, I kind of am creepy (not like the perv. or stalker kind). I don't know about the black heart but yea, i do like odd stuff and i am kind of depressing, but it was just so funny becaue they are like afraid of me. I never even did anything for people to be afraid of me for anyways! haha. it just dawned on me that people fear things that they don't understand and it makes me wonder what else the human race fears that actually isnt what it seems. just a thought.

i have to say a BIG thankyou to mrssmartypants and fairmoon
because they were soooo kind! I mentioned in one of my comments that I was saving up for a cool mouse effect thing (which i did put on but you cant really see it) and they gave me TBucks so that I could get it! Fairmoon actually got to me first so I ended up returning mrssmartypants's TBucks because I would feel way too guilty keeping both and I gave the remainder of my bucks to fairmoon. I really appreciate it guys!

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what exactly does it mean to be goth? I have always admired the gothic mindset and everything about it, but im just really curious lately.

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